Eighty-ninth
So after a month of overspending I decided to keep a precise look at income and expenses. So I’m going to pretty much do a month by month balance of how much money I have. Seeing I have to start paying off student loans I don’t think that will hurt. It will hopefully also open my eyes a bit more that I really need to find another job.
Besides that I also started a more drastic diet plan. Already been twice to the gym this week and I’ve been making myself a sort of healthy shakes based on soy milk and fruit. So no ready made stuff seeing that is only expensive. Those only serve to replace some meals though, I obviously won’t be giving up solid food seeing you sort of need that. I just need to lose weight for various reasons, health not actually being the main reason, it’s also a thing about appearance. When you go looking for a job I don’t think it helps when you’re fat honestly. People still have misconceptions about that so best to remove a factor that might stop you from getting hired. Better fitting clothes is also a good reason, could come up with a ton of them.
So I set up my dual monitor set up and for the first time in buying an LCD screen I have a dead pixel, which is annoying but I guess I’ve been lucky so far. The position is pretty much in the middle though but I guess i can live with it. I have to say that two screens of 24″ is huge and takes some getting used to. I however do like it and it will make working on things easier in certain ways.
In the screenwriting department I haven’t really done a lot, almost nothing actually. That’s actually why I also want to lose weight, it’s a self confidence issue, the first time I lost a lot of weight (and thankfully I only gained about tend pounds of that back, on seventy pounds that isn’t too bad I’d say) it gave me more confidence for a while. So I’m hoping that it will do the same this time and give me more motivation to write. I did enter my current script into another competition though, I should have done that a while ago but I’ve been putting that off for no good reason. This time it’s a competition with feedback so I’m actually a bit scared about that. Same competition as with my original Nucleus script actually and they actually sort of liked things about that. Even though I can see how much it failed in the technical department.
Instead of running away from criticism I should be embracing it and using it to make it better. I actually did change minor things in the script based on feedback from two people and some comments I read in Script Magazine. So it’s not the same script that was entered in the Big Break competition last year. The story obviously is identical but in the details it’s different and it has one added scene. So we’ll see what comes from it, though a crushing review won’t be helping my confidence levels, I know that much.