Yes, I changed the way I name the blog postings. Why? Because no one reads them anyway and this is just easier. So here we are on a Tuesday afternoon doing what? Well, I just wrote a blog for the starletinc.com website which I will post later. I decided I’ve become a bit too whiny in my blogs lately so I changed it a bit. It’s actually about someone’s career again instead of whining about blogs and people around the internet. Chances are that it’s a subject other people are more interested in anyway. I still want more visitors so I actually made a separate Twitter account for it, a lot of other sites do it so why shouldn’t I, seems to be a good way of getting things out there, we’ll see how that goes.

Another thing I’m doing at the moment (well going to do in a minute) is to look at job listings. I really need a more steady job with a decent monthly income and also a job with not as much drama as mine. Well, not that much drama, more people that act like it’s all dramatic. Only so many whiny customers I can handle and I think I’m close to having reached my maximum. I’m also more motivated now because two other people found a different job, the thing with those people is that they are the most useless people in our department. So if the most useless department can find other jobs why wouldn’t I? Not that I’m saying I’m the perfect employee but I do know that I’m a lot better than those two are. I’m still not sure what kind of job I’m looking for, as long as it doesn’t involve answering too many phones and it’s not that far away from me I’m fine with it. I wonder how big a distance I have traveled by train over the last three years that I’ve worked there. Three years yes, far too long.

As for the script writing, not that much went on with that since the last time I wrote about it. I however think that I found a bit more motivation to work on it, I’m going to try something later today and we’ll see how it goes. Trying as in building a story structure, not actual writing yet.

February 27th and the last post was in January, rather pathetic really. Yet again however I haven’t done as much writing as I would have liked for various reasons. There was one and a half weeks of having the flu, one week of being in different towns all the time and for last week I don’t realy have an excuse though I do have one for the last couple of days.

Work isn’t as  frequent as it used to be right now due to the economic crisis though I’m not the one to panic about that. The crisis is affecting my life a bit though, I’m actually off a full week now without asking for it. I’ll actually try to spend time on my script in that time if I get my head into it. The last couple of days were just mentally exhausting.

I was called in to work Wednesday for something that happened close to work and I didn’t think it would affect me that much mentally actually. I won’t go into details but when you see something that is covered on CNN and you’re not close to it then it just seems like a movie. However when you’re involved in the effects on a company and a group of people after the event it hits you far more.

Though they want to outsource my job, maybe the events in the last couple of days might make that seem like a bad idea. Though I have to add that you can lose all faith in humanity when you see people trying to take advantage of what is basically a disaster.

I put starletviews.com on hiatus, I simply cannot get motivated to really work on that site anymore. People just don’t care, they want trash gossip sites and pictures, I give them neither. Here I was thinking that adding some actual content with a well structured opinion could work. It’s also a distraction, even though there are still other projects I’m working on I want to remove distractions to get more time to work on my script.

Still reading the book The Screenwriter’s Problem Solver by Syd Field. As with any book I read about the subject I take from the book what I think is useful, I would never use it as a blueprint for a script. I won’t give a full opinion on the book yet though, I’ll do that once I’ve finished reading it.

If I were to use these books as a blueprint for my script, it wouldn’t have my own style though I’m not even sure I have my own style yet. Probably another reason why I’m afraid to actually finish the script. Have to do that sooner or later though, looking at the amount of time I already put into it.  Don’t think I’ve ever put as much time into anything in my life.

I really need to clean my apartment though, maybe that will clear my head a bit. Going to the gym twice this week already also helped a bit though so I have some hope that I will get some writing done in the next seven days.

I’m not really someone who usually believes in bad luck but the past two days made me change my mind a bit. There are basically four things that pissed me off:

• My bikeseat got stolen; not the cheapest one either seeing it had a shock absorber.
• I tried to get concert tickets for the Killers: Sold out within one day and I wasn’t able to buy them on the first day.
• My computer is still not fixed. The computer store still doesn’t have the motherboard in stock.
• I almost had a fire yesterday; my microwave/convection oven didn’t turn off its heating elemetns after it was done. If I hadn’t smelled something burning it might have gotten to the point where it would have started to burn. It’s unacceptable that an oven could fail that way; there should be safeguards in place to prevent that kind of failure. Shame on Daewoo.

I haven’t been in a good move to begin with; as I said before: I’m not going anywhere anytime soon.

That my computer isn’t fixed yet still isn’t helping the script writing. I actually managed to write a scene last week but I can’t put it into the computer yet. It might not be that much but it’s a start, one scene is better than no scene. Nothing towards the ending but more a scene that fills a gap in the current story and adding to the character development of two of the characters. Also meant I had to do some minor changes to one or two other scenes but nothing major.

As for the websites not much happening there either yet. I’m considering completely changing the lay out and concept of starletlinks.com to  get more visitors. Right now that site isn’t really worth its time looking at the numbers but with some of my ideas it might work. Could also be a waste of time but if you don’t try you won’t succeed.

So I had a phone meeting with TVGuide.com today; I expected to speak only to my contact but it turned out it was also with her boss, the head of online marketing. Wasn’t quite prepared for that; guess I could have made more of the call. Oh well, maybe I can correct that mistake in the future.

They basically wanted me to impliment widgets from TVGuide in the Starletviews.com and Starletlinks.com websites. Result of the talk is that I might implement one and that they have to do some work on the other ones. They were happy with the feedback that they aren’t as easy to integrate as they had hoped, so maybe more will come of it in the future.  I need more content; that’s a fact.

No idea why I got myself all wound up before that call….. it’s not like there was a lot to it. I silently hoped a bit more from the call but I’m glad I stayed realistic. The bad line didn’t help that much either, I have to say though that they are punctual. They said they would call 2pm EDT and they called 2pm EDT.

I’m slowly getting into the writing mood again; I haven’t continued on my script yet but I’m getting there. I first want my computer fixed seeing it’s messed up again, there must be a problem with the power supply or motherboard; luckily it’s still under warranty.

Once I get back to writing I have some ideas to change the story in certain sections to improve character development on two of the characters. I always felt that there was something missing. I know one thing now; being distracted by other things in life can really suck the motivation to write out of you. I’m also trying to get into the writing mood by reading Script Magazine, there were a couple of issues which I didn’t really like but the latest one is a lot better again luckily.

I even had a new movie idea in the past week though it was more of a general concept. No real idea about the story but a rather interesting premise where I don’t think we’ve seen a lot of movies or TV shows about. So there are plenty of ideas in my head; the getting them down on paper is still the hard part. Though I’m still in the learning stage on that one.

I really need to get a different job; the over an hour commute is starting to annoy me and certain aspects in the working place just suck. Superiors just won’t listen, changes are made that aren’t exactly improvements. You would think that an employer would try to avoid RSI; not in this case, quite the opposite looking at the changes.

Also that I’m only there as a temp is a bit of a problem now. So far it wasn’t seeing I usually worked an average of about four days a week but the number of available shifts has gone down quite a bit. Two or three shifts a week I can stand for a while but one shift like next week isn’t exactly a healthy long term financial plan. Even though I just got a raise for being there for over eighteen months now. Which in reality is also a bit too long. The people there are nice and all but in all reality the job just sucks.

The fact that I’m underappreciated, they’re not listening, bad planning and the low number of shifts makes me think I should look for something else. Though that’s easier said than done in an uncertain job market with the financial crisis. Though that also might be a motivation to change jobs seeing my job probably won’t be untouched by the financial crisis in the long run.

On the websites front there is good and bad news. The Mileyforum.com site I was talked into by someone else isn’t a success as of yet; it clearly shows how slow you get a decent ranking on search engines like google. You can apply SEO all you want it’s not a guarantee for success. That’s despite the fact that it’s simply hard to open a forum and get a lot of members right away. It does take time but without members it’s hard to draw activity, that’s besides there being quite a lot of Miley forums out there already. Not that it matters that much, the hosting account for that is on a monthly renewal.

Starletlinks.com still isn’t getting a lot of visitors but I’m not expecting for that to change soon. I though the concept might be something but not really so far, people just prefer google to find things. Starletviews.com is actually doing better yet the visitor numbers are down a bit. That might seem strange but I’m quite glad that google image searches are starting to be replaced by normal google searches to get to the site. So more and more people are seeing the actual content. So the total number of visitors might be going down but the general quality of visitors should be improving, even though there are still plenty of dirty searches. I installed a SEO mod on the site and it seems to be paying of. I could install it on here as well but I simply don’t care enough to do it; nobody reads this junk anyway.

I’m also still in contact with the people at TVGuide.com and certain things about that are quite promising. They’re talking about adding a blogroll to the site and Starletviews is a candidate to be added on that so that could be a good thing. They’re also talking about partnership opportunities but I still have to find out what kind of opportunities, can’t get in touch with my contact until next week though. I really wonder what kind of thing they’re talking about because I suspect they might be vastly overestimating the visitor numbers the sites get. Then again that’s something that’s easily checked on the internet these days.

It’s just something I have to wait and see about. It can’t really hurt to be affiliated with TVGuide.com anyway. It’s not like they’re part of the “evil” part of the internet.

Over a month since my last post and virtually nothing happened on my script. There are a couple of reasons for that.

1. Still suffering from a bit of writers block.
2. Busy with work.
3. My hard-drive crashed

A hard-drive crash in itself wouldn’t be so bad but this was my prime Windows install. Don’t worry, I make backups so the script is safe. I don’t know what I would have done if I didn’t make backups of that.

To distract myself from that writers block I also let myself be talked into something by a friend of mine. As a spin-off from Starletviews.com there now actually is a forum dedicated to Miley Cyrus; which can be found on Mileyforum.com.

Starting a forum that will do well isn’t easy so I hope that this will succeed to some extent. It’s not that a lot of time was put into it but it still would be nice to see one of my sites becoming bigger. I’m also getting sick of fan forums that are only about the positive, I’m a moderator on a specific fan forum about Lindsay Lohan and I get booed away when you dare to criticize.  So hopefully Mileyforum.com will be different and some decent discussion is actually possible.

Also brings the number of domains I own to sixteen which is quite a lot. Someone actually wants to use the mileycyrus.nl domain I have protected and which is available for forwarding. I ony have some minor rules as far as that is concerned and if those can’t be followed I don’t see the point. The discussion with that guy is going absolutely nowhere.

I do hope to continue with my script soon though, that’s still my priority in a way. Though I haven’t been in the best of moods lately, really seems like I’m not going anywhere fast…….

Almost no writing the last month, simple as that. The reason is simple; writer’s block. I wasn’t happy with the ending I had in my head so that just kept me from writing; I think I have solved that problem now so I hope things will speed up soon. The old ending I had in mind was just too anti-climactic and not “Hollywood” enough, not that the new ending will be full out Hollywood it will just be less boring.

Confidence hasn’t been that high lately anyway due to various factors, I just feel stuck in my current life and don’t know what to do about it besides finishing the movie script. Though that’s everything but a secure future plan, it’s a long shot at best. In the end it’s just a side project where I’ll see what comes from it.

Doesn’t mean I haven’t done anything in general, I redesigned the other websites after all. The visitor numbers still aren’t as high as I want them to be, though I still hope that will change in time. It’s not like starletviews.com is the only celebrity blog out there. I’ll just see what the future holds, the site looks a bit better now so every little thing might help.

Very short this time but there’s not that much to tell.

I haven’t written anything on here and I haven’t written much as far as the script goes either. The combination of being busy with other things and having a irregular work schedule can do that. On top of that I’ve had a really bad cold for two weeks, I know that a cold isn’t anything major but I just can’t focus on a story when I my head is full of snot. And when I mean full of snot I mean full of snot, everything fills up in my head, to such an extent that I get tooth aches.

I also made a major mistake, I set myself a deadline. Sometimes you just can’t predict if you’ll get busy with other things so there was no way of knowing whether I could finish the script in June. Turns out it won’t be done in June. I’ll be a couple of days off next week though so I’m hoping I’ll be able to get some writing done then. Another thing that might be holding me back is some doubt I have about the ending. Most scripts have happy endings, it’s just the way it Is. I’m now torn between two endings, one bad and the other one very dark and bad. The second option might even be too dark, I don’t know. I’ll decide when I get to it. Which hopefully will be soon.

I’ve at least managed to get the posts up on starletviews.com and the site has been getting record numbers of visitors. Still not that many but it’s slowly growing though sadly mainly due to weird image searches on google. Maybe that will change in time, something that needs to change I think though is the look of the site. It doesn’t look bad but it just looks a bit too plain with the color scheme.

I’m still grateful to allisonp1 for doing this graphic design and I will keep using it for starletlinks.com. There isn’t that much sense in keeping them graphically matched right now so I might as well change it a little bit. This time I’ll try to do a new graphic look myself, to make it easier I bought a Wacom graphical tablet. They’re not cheap but they’re good and they make work in graphical programs a hell of a lot easier. Note that I use Paint.NET and not Photoshop, I simply don’t have the money to pay Adobe prices and my computer is completely illegal software free and I want to keep it that way. To practice I did the header for this site, I couldn’t think of a more basic way to do it but sometimes less is more.

I don’t know when the new design will be up and if I’ll put it up, I need to ask for some opinions before I do that. I don’t see myself as the most talented in computer graphics so we’ll have to see. I’m also very self critical so even though something might look good I might hate it because I think my work sucks. I’m also not sure whether I should even include pictures in a new header, a site might work better if there’s just a uniform look to it without a lot of graphics. I guess I’ll just keep toying with the graphics for a bit.

I have input all the things I wrote while I was away into Final Draft, sadly it’s less than I hoped for. Only got to 72 pages where I expected 80. On second thought it isn’t that bad a thing though, the story is going where I want it to be going and it means I don’t have to rush through the last part of it.

I’m proofreading what I’ve written so far; I was amazed at how many times I used the word just. It was really annoying so I removed it in most places, no idea why I was using it that much.

I’m actually working this weekend so the proofreading is done on my way to work on the train. It just sucks that those trains are in the middle of the night, I really prefer late shifts over early shifts. But they have their advantages as well. Even though I’m off on Monday I don’t know if I will get to a lot of writing.

Not that I don’t know what to write but I also have other things to take care of, starletviews.com just being one of them. Trying to increase the number of posts on that site, it just sucks that people only seem to be attracted to either trash sites and sites with pictures. When you actually want to write something positive or not simply mean but critical people won’t visit it. As for the images, I just don’t want to get into trouble with image agencies. I have tons of pictures the problem just is that I don’t know the original source. Though I only use pictures for editorial use so there some once in a while.

As for starletlinks.com, I’m actually increasing the number of people featured on the site. It’s up to 58 now while I once vowed I would only do 50, thing just is the more names the more visitors so I don’t really have a limit right now. The fact that I set certain rules as for who is featured means it won’t grow too big anyway. I always remove names as well anyway seeing the site is focused on the under 25 year olds. Might seem like an odd limit but I just find it interesting to see how young actresses develop.

I also should edit the look of this blog really, the standard layout is annoying the hell out of me. A different banner would already make a huge difference so I might do that tonight seeing I’m not really motivated to write after an early shift and a bad ride home.

Seeing that I run a site on younger celebrities I often get the question who I would like to see fill some of the parts. Yes there is one big role in the movie that would be for a younger actress but I don’t write for actresses. If THEVO was ever to be made (which pretty much never happens to spec scripts) I wouldn’t say that a specific actress would be perfect for a role. A role should be a character and not an actress, just like an actress would have to become her character in a movie.

That’s enough for today though, still hoping I will get some writing in this week. I’ll try and keep the one scene a day thing in mind if my schedule allows it.

On my third day of being off from work now and I haven’t really done that much writing yet. I did do a lay-out of what scenes more or less still have to be written so it at least is a start. And to be completely honest I haven’t really been in the mood for writing the last couple of days.

I just can’t sit down and write I have to be in a certain mood. Which in a way sucks, would go a lot faster if I could get myself into that mood on command. There probably are some techniques of doing that I just have to find it. The fact that I’m still waking up at 6am every morning doesn’t help either, I figured that might end once I was off from work but not yet. Still thinking that’s just a phase though.

Next week I actually hope to get quite a lot done on my script. Why? Because I won’t have access to my computer; I will be looking after my mother’s dog at her house while she and my sister go to visit my grandmother. Seeing I don’t have a laptop I will just have to manage without a computer. Though that would increase the chances of me getting some writing done by simply putting it on paper. It might be an old fashioned method of script writing but it works for me. Though I still have to put it into the computer afterwards and in that process I always make some changes.

I also finished the Making a Good Script Great book by Linda Seger, again just like with all the script writing books I’ve read there are very useful things in there. I’m not saying I will use everything from it but certainly some aspects, as all the books say everyone has to find their own style and writing process. Right now I’m reading The Script-Selling Game by Kathie Fong Yoneda which I more or less ordered by accident (seeing I’m not trying to sell any scripts yet) it still contains useful hints. What sucks though is that I think that once again my Script Magazine didn’t arrive, would be the second time. The mail sure is screwing up lately, didn’t get another magazine subscription either this month.

That I won’t be at my computer will also mean that my sites won’t be updated for a bit though I doubt hardly anyone will notice, they’re not exactly high traffic sites. Which still sucks but I’m still not planning on giving up. I’m still hoping that my less shallow voice will be heard at some point though it’s sometimes hard to come up with good stuff to write about.

Also started the gym thing this week, still a bit sore from working out two days in a row but not too bad. Also figured I could get some (script) thinking done while doing that but with the crappy music selection at the gym that’s not happening. I take my own mp3 player there but it’s not enough to filter out the crappy workout music. Also on a bit of health food trip the last couple of days, eating a lot of fruit and fruit smoothy’s. Not eating just fruit though, I know someone who fucked up her stomach with that once.

Just hoping that it all be worthwhile and that I start to lose weight again. Well and that I might get more inspired to start writing somehow, it’s also a confidence thing I guess.