So I pretty much did what I set out to do today, I finished proofreading TH again today. As I figured there was less to change towards the end though I did had to do some tweaking. Even though you think these things through so much you always make mistakes. Just today I noticed that I didn’t actually introduce one of the main characters by name. I would call that quite a major oversight though something like that is easily fixed.
I didn’t write anything new, the inspiration didn’t come today. Which is too bad but at least I got something done. I had to take care of other things anyway seeing my mother comes back tomorrow. Though I didn’t go to the vet because of the weather, I don´t have a car here right now so I would have needed to walk. Can´t really show up with a dog to get her shots when she´s soaking wet. Maybe tomorrow, we´ll see.
I didn’t write anything for the blogs today as I said that I wouldn’t, wasn’t really inspired to do so anyway. It’s not like I’m in a rush to get stuff finished for that right now. I don’t have to post that stuff the minute I get home and I have access to the internet again.
Actually got an extra shift at work this week, originally I only had a shift on Friday but today they called and asked if I could work a late shift on Saturday. Seeing I get time and a half on Saturdays I said yes, also a pretty quiet shift usually anyway. Earlier this week the temp agency also called about extra shifts at a different location, three actually. Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday.
Honestly I don’t know what their malfunction is. They have my availability schedule so why on earth would they call me? They know I’m not available for most of this week and they know that I work on Friday. This isn’t the first time that something like this happened. I though the most useless person working there was gone (she’s actually in charge of her own branch now, that’s bound to fail) but I guess I was wrong. Just read the bloody schedules.
Quite annoying anyway, you can’t actually go away for a week without being called about work. Though it’s not just the temp agency that does it, a co-worker asked if I could pick up one of her shifts on Thursday. She got the suggestion to ask me from our scheduler who knows very well that I’m not back yet on Thursday. That’s a lot of unnecessary phone calls that are being made. Sometimes when I’m off for a couple of days I’m tempted to turn of my phone. The scheduler even called one of my co-workers while she was out of the country on holiday.
You try and get away from work for a little while, just shut off and do something else and you’re unable to. Even though the two calls today were very short it still screwed with the rhythm of the day as I was just proofreading TH. Can’t say that it really influenced it but maybe it did. My very own butterfly effect, something I think quite a lot about actually. What if? It’s one of the questions in this world that can’t be answered.
I never really said why I write movie scripts, besides the obvious reasons of it being an artistic expression, send a message you believe in, a way to make money (even though you have to be very good to make a good living out of it) and all sorts. For me the one is that I don’t want to be forgotten. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to be famous. Screenwriters rarely do get famous. I just want my little bit of eternity and general acceptance.
Right now I can’t say that I feel very accomplished. I have a pointless dead end job, I’m not in a relationship and my circle of friends is limited (not that I’m an asshole, people usually like me. I just suck at keeping friendships going. I’m an extreme example of out of sight out of heart) and there are several other things (I really should get my diet going again, I keep delaying it, it’s not like it didn’t work before). So I can’t say that I’m really happy right now.
I know very well that a movie script isn’t a direct way to happiness. The script would have to be good and it would actually have to be made, I’m very aware of the fact that far more scripts don’t get made than that do get made. Doesn’t mean I can’t hope, if you don’t have hope there wouldn’t be a point to writing. Why would you write something when you’re 100% certain that it would never be made? I know I’ve written scripts that never had the intent of being made but those were for practice. I mean come on, why would Disney make a Hannah Montana episode where Miley is a serial killer? (I actually added that script to the site recently and can be found here)